It’s Time To Trust Your Vibes
“I believe it’s time for me to fly.” - REO Speedwagon
I heard that song in my head when I was working through some of my chit. As I walked around the house, I could hear it randomly play in my mind, and I belted out the chorus in harmony with Kevin Cronin’s sweet Yacht Rock vocals. Then I stopped and realized this is an act of clairaudience and I better check in with my vibes. So I stopped and observed what I was feeling and where I was feeling it- usually it is anxiety and I feel it in my gut and sometimes my heart. Then I tune into my frequency, my subconscious mind, to check in with myself. Am I present and my mind is neutral? Or is a narrative playing out? If so, what is that narrative?
As I cleaned the living room, I tuned into that story that was playing. I have been feeling overwhelmed lately and I tend to go into auto pilot mode when in this state. While fairly productive and neutral, I had tension and it was because I was feeling unappreciated. While it is easy to complain about perceived time and space encroachers, and I was doing many of my self-care rituals, I realized the culprit….. it was my old friend, my old stories.
I caught up with the part of me that felt overwhelmed, and this time it felt like I was being encroached upon and I was having feelings of being unrecognized and unappreciated for the things I was doing above and beyond. So I got in touch with the undercurrent:
These feelings of unappreciated and overlooked- totally feeds into past trauma/stories; then I go into superhero mode to fix it- totally feeds into how I showed up before- sometimes putting other people’s stuff before my own- even if it is headspace.
What was I doing to myself?
I was feeling low vibe which had me doubt some things I am doing in my life that make me happy. Including this very site from which you are reading this post. I felt small, and my trauma has me either lash out or go small. I was fighting the urge to go small, but didn’t realize all of this is because I was on auto pilot. Instead, once I realized this pattern, I got focused. While I did the extra work that was thrown in my lap, I made sure I took the time I needed for me- unapologetically.
What I got out of it.
A week later, I was still feeling it, but I was aware of it and when it popped up, I check in, and re-direct myself through affirmation and reassurance of being true to myself. But now I am far enough away from the situation that I can observe. I made a choice taking on that extra assignment. I could have been more persistent in asking for help rather than dealing with things alone. Or next time I can say no to the extra work or limit what I agree to do. And if this type of “burden” persists, then I have a choice to make.
Over the course of the past decade of trial and error; fall down and get up, I became more deeply connected to how I was operating from my old chit, and I got more in touch with what was missing in my life. I was disconnected from myself. It was the inconsistency of how I was taking care of myself. I was not fully mind-body-soul integrated- I was most often operating out of 1 or maybe 1 and a half, and often operating from a place of people pleasing and seeing that as my validation.
What I do about it.
My mind-body-soul connection breakthrough came when I added more movement to my life by consistently exercising my body. Over the past decade, I had been inconsistent with fitness- do it for awhile and get great results and fall off only to lose my gains. We all know the importance of taking good care of our bodies- it’s like taking care of any investment, especially those things that keep us thriving! In the summer of 2019, I joined Beachbody. It has been vital to my consistency in retaining mind-body-soul connection awareness. It has helped change my body to the one I envision. The programs are easy to access and do anywhere, but challenging and fun. And so affordable. The diversity of workout options is pretty fantastic, too. From boxing workouts to barre and yoga, and 100s of workouts in between. In 2020, I completed a 200 hour yoga teacher certification and that furthered my desire to understand the body and movement. While cleaning my home during COVID shut down, I found a personal journal from 2015 and it held a list of goals, and one was yoga teacher certification. No time like a pandemic to get a certification. I did some research and found the Online Yoga School. It was incredibly affordable, and it is quite comprehensive and very effective for being taught in a self-guided way. Since completing the certification, I have led virtual yoga for friends and family, and have integrated it into 1:1 coaching Zoom session for one of my clients.
Even though at times it can be hard to say goodbye to the old story- no matter how unhealthy or limiting, it must be released if it keeps us stuck. As we are instructed every time before a plane’s take-off: “…put the oxygen mask on you first”. However you define your self-care rituals and routines that keep you optimized, always put the oxygen mask on you first.
In that moment of clairaudience and hearing REO Speedwagon’s “Time for me to Fly” it helped me see this situation as an opportunity for growth and reflection on how far I have come, and carrying emotional and psychological baggage only weighs me down. When my most important job here on earth is to transcend…. to fly.
In typing this post I realize that another song I sing at an existential growth spurt is Nicki Minaj’s, Fly. Further validation that you can see, hear, feel and trust your vibes.
What’s your psychic superpower? Everybody’s got one or two…. time to tap into your extra sensory perception and get the most out of your life as a spiritual being having a human experience.
